TERM THREE was a season where God delivered and showed me things that I was once "blinded" from seeing.



I know and recognised that being in JC, I've not been enjoying life pretty much. I looked forward to Holidays, weekends and nights! The thought of going to school everyday stirs up fear and uncertainty. Term 1 and 2, I was physically, mentally and spiritually drained! The word of God was like another dry piece of "geography reading", it appeared as knowledge but it doesnt speak to me. I struggled going to church during Term2, was in a dry spell. I was so caught up in striving well academically, I depended a lot on my own strength, I called upon the Lord yet still had doubts within my heart due to the past failures in term1.



Term3, after June holidays, I decided to start school afresh! However, I've failed! I was once again tore down by my results!!! I was trapped in lies and self doubts. I tried pretty hard to cover up my emotions and try really hard to move on each day.

It was only then when I suddenly breakdown during altar call. God started to reveal things to me, the process was tough as i learn to recognise my weaknesses and to trun to God! The voice which kept sounding in my heart was "die to yourself!", for days that phrase was repeated over and over again until I decided to ask God to teach me how to die to myself. It was tough as God showed me how to die to myself during MSA2.

After 3 times of bad results, and finally as I seek God and allowed Him to show me the way, I finally did well in Term3!! wow! i know its not by my strength! All glory Goes to the LORD! The process was tough but it was possible through the strength of the LORD!



Now, as i battled promos, and was packed with activities.... woow. I just want to give in my best for the LORD! the results are in His Hands! No matter what, I'll still praise HIM and Love Him because He knows what is best for me. I know my furture is in His hands and He'll carry me through it all! I'm not afraid and shy to STAND for Him.

Now, I want to serve with passion and enjoy everyday with Him! to those who are in the season of dryness, hang on and press on in the Lord! Be patient as you cling on to the promise of the Lord. Do not limit the way how God can work in our lives.

new cell!
from HIM&HER to BFC!!

Last Sunday, I had a great time with my family. We went to Sambawang.... bleahhh.(fyi: I don't usually take note of where I go) for dinner. It was cool, its kinda "wuloo", nevertheless, its big, and you're able to fish and have family duck boat-cycling in the sea... well, of course we didn't do any of those activities. We went there for dinner and we sat by the sea. It was awesome.

yesterday, we got into our new cell. woohoo.
really thank god for such wonderful grp of ppl! yeah. although I already know most of them like...
Joyce -primary 1 classmate.
Clarissa- Sec 2 Dance -Christmas event
Smarties -sec1 cell
sophia- last year, random hi-bye and this year an encourager to persevere.
Kaiwei- Sec2 cell
Joshua- I actually cant rmb how I know him. guess I knew him in sec4 and better last year and this year via leads programme.
Daryl- usher duty.
Jasmine- Zoo trip

I need some time to adjust though. woohoo. I tried talking... but I guess I've failed. ha.
5things to share : 1)name, 2)school 3)favourite food, 4)hobby, 5)how i clean ___.
HAHA. i was kinda nervous so I actually couldn't process what I'm suppose to say. I had more to share but well was too nervous so I reduced my words to one word answer for those qns. yeah. apologised for wasting time. ha.

Usher duty was great! praise God! the new ushers did a pretty great job for their first duty! Really appreciate them! =) Hope God will continue to grant me His PASSION to serve!

Mom went to HongKong last Friday! aiyo. we sms each other for the past few days! haha.
On Friday, Mom sms-ed me "I reached HK alr!" then "have you taken your lunch?" during math tutorial... man, I was kinda distracted so i actually couldn't wait for math tut to be over so I cld reply her! Zzz. yeah. its kinda -.-''' haha. then I had a lonely dinner at home on Friday! so mom and I sms-ed each other like almost 24-7? haha. gosh. yeah, Whenever she goes overseas in the past, Dad would be home to take care of us,bring us out and try his best to be like a mother&father... now, dad isnt here, so of course when mom is away for awhile.. I miss her really easily. haha. i rmb crying when I was in primary school and dad had to put me on his lap and cheer me up( it difficult). then another occasion, I had food poisoning when mom was overseas and dad had to take leave to take care of me. and when I didn't know how to do my Chinese ZUOWEN!, dad tried his best to help me and got some help from mom via call. haha. those memories showed how troublesome I was. hahaha... yahooo! mom will be home soon! =)

Last night, Adrian brought us out for dinner! lol It was suppose to be a last HIM&HER cell dinner. Ended up it was like ADAM,ADRIAN,JOEL and myself.. like -.-''' . haha. But we had a great time. We went to some Japanese restaurant. sushi and main course... Then Adrian was randomly reminded of what his future would be like when his kids grow up. HAhah. he was like "eh. just nice 2 boys and one girl." wow. haha. like that also can. haha. then when I couldn't finish my food (as usual), he said this "if you cant finish, just try to finish the pork and leave the rice and potatoes aside, we'll help you with the rest..." haha. yeah. All parents say that to their kids. We had a great time during dinner. haha. guess it was a good opportunity for Adrian to train his daddy skills. haha.

Get into one when my walk with Him is strong.
Its foolish to waste time pondering over useless things.

Highlights!
Eldest bro finally graduated from NUS!
Kara and Randy's wedding would be this sat!! hoo! sweet couple.
Zonal Bonding this sunday, to the ZOO! ha.

Might be serving in the Dialect ministry on sundays as a guitarist if I'm capable of playing in the team. haha. Hokkien! haha.

hope to catch up with you guys soon.

woohoo. I have not enjoyed my holidays.

Well, the first week of Holidays, I was in school for the first three days and of course I had Chinese Tuition every night!! well, speaking Chinese Language isnt easy at all. Zzzz. yeah, guess most of you will think that I'm weird, like a chinese cant speak chinese language well. yeah, I'm kind of fustrated and irritated when I cant speak chinese well! phew.. thank God for my chinese tutor who got me through chinese Olevel and soon chinese Alevel! I want to get over it this year!!

Apart from that, Every weekend is packed with events.

the 1st Saturday, I attended Ms Ting and Mr Low's Church wedding!

haha. That was the only highlight of my 1st week. ha.

Ms Ting, my sec1 formteacher,sec2 music teacher,sec2-4 guitar teacher-incharge and sec4-geog teacher.

Mr Low, sec3-5 addmath teacher and sec5 level head.

haha. really glad and happy for them, TALL COUPLE! ha.

Second weekend of Holidays was 2nd Bro's Commission Parade!

woohoo! He had the honour to hold the Flag for Commando OCS! really proud of him.

yeah. Both Brothers are capable and fit! Eldest bro was also from Ocs. man. phew, thank God I'm a girl, i'm not as capable as them and studies wise they're much much better than me. ha. I'll give my best! Look up to them!

well, PW!! ha. thank God for an awesome PW group! yeah, have been spending much of my hols on PW! yesterday, we went Orchard to do our PW surveys. for the last half an hour, we decided to do a verbal survey. Well, that was a Giant to me. If you know me well, I dont really like to talk much unless I know you well. So approaching strangers is already a BIG NO NO to me, however, I have to do it. Guess what, I was so nervous that I phrased my sentence wrongly! the question is "what is unique about the Peranakan culture to you?" ....

I was really nervous that I minus off the words "the peranakan culture to". so I ended up asking "What is unique about you?" SHEESH. then it took me awhile to realise.. then I went "omg.i mean not about you, what is unique about the peranakan culture to you" Gosh. that was super embarrassing! but thank God that person laughed along and was understanding enough. ha. I have to overcome my fear of talking to strangers. ha.

well, yesterday, Great-grandfather fell down and was unconscious.

Today, He left us. a fall and that's it...

guess his 90++ of years living has left a great impact on many.

May the peace of God be with great-grandma, grandma and everybody.

Through it all I KNOW THAT GOD IS IN CONTROL!
"Fear not my child, I'll never leave, I'll never forsake you..."
Yes! Amen! This is what that pulls me through the first 3months in JC.

I'll stand firm In HIM!
I know that its through those experiences that God would refine me into the person He desires me to be. "I'll walk with You wherever you go, through tears and joy, I'll trust in you." God I my refuge and strength! I'll press on! My life will not end here. I'll continue to press on and press in, my days are numbered! hold my hand and run the race ahead with me!

well, I seriously hope my dear friends would come back to God! Rmb those days where you were on fire for God, the first Love/ encounter with Him. Without Him, would you have gotten this far? hmm. well, I cant say much though, but I hope to see you guys back in the kingdom, dont miss the blessings. God still loves you. He give all of the freedom to choose/ decide. He will not FORCE his love on us, He will wait patiently for you to return to him.

Its MAY!
Firstly, I would like to apologise to most of my close dear friends for not catching up with you guys. I've been loaded with lots of things recently. Well, I have to thank God for carrying me through those tough days.

Well, being in JC feels really different from secondary school. I went back to PL last thursday(300th april), I realized how fortunate I am to be there for 11 years? I admit that I was kind of dying to get out of PL after 10 years there. However, the extra year was a blessing to me. Sometimes, I do wonder why was I placed there? was it because Grandma wanted all her granddaugthers to be in a Methodist Girls' school ? PL was the nearest branch when it was situated at Boundary Road. Guess apart from that, my life is in God's hands.
PL primary and secondary has a tradition of having worship and word before school starts and weekly chapel sessions. I remember those stories about Noah's ark,adam and eve... etc. which were taught during chapel sessions and songs like: This is the day, Joy is the Flag flown High, He's Able.
Well, I thank God for placing me there. God has carried me through those years, tears of joy and sorrows. Those 11 years in PL has formed almost a quarter of my story in God's plan. The tough experience when I lost my Dad, God bless me with great teachers who were there to support and pray for me (6th year in pri and 5yrs in sec school). God showed me that He is my Fahter in Heaven and will not leave me alone. I wonder what would happen if I didnt put PL sec as my first choice. would I come to know God further? would I be who I am today?
yeah, friends,lovedones and things around come and go.

Being in JC, I thank God for restoring His peace and strength in me.
Well, I'll keep my accountability - my focus would just be on my academic and cca. ha. yeah. hope to keep in touch with my dear friends and teachers who've made my life in PL memorable and fruitful.
I'll stick to the pormise of God! Leave my footprints behind.

SYF2009
PL guitar ensemble- silver.
woo. I seriously think you guys deserve at least a GOLD! really. What matters most is the experience you all had together. The countless practises and efforts put in worth more than the award. 10years down the road, the award would be useless, take with you the experience and memories you all had together as an ensemble. No moatter what, Praise God for a silver! The panel of judges were too strict this year. yeah. All the way!

woo. Had MSA1. I'm pretty sure I didnt do well, it wasnt my best. Arghh. yeah. TIME TO WAKE UP LJIA.
why am i so emotional recently. Guess I probably missed out a lot in my quiet time with God. I've not been doing qt very regularly. Man, this has greatly affected me. I felt insecure somehow. Its not because I have no friends its just that I suddenly miss my dad.

On sunday, my mom and I packed our old house and there were lots of things that brings back memories about my dad and wonderful family memories. woo. Dad- self-sacrificial man, does things quietly more than he talks, jovial, thrifty, generous to the poor and needy, fatherly(duh), provides everything for his family, good at cooking, loves exercising, humble and lots of things. yeah, I thank God for a great dad who gave his kids different exposures and taught us great values in life that cannot be bought. experience of living in a "kampong" when I was a kid till 6 yrs old, a month at boundary rd with grandma, a year at hdb, 6 yrs at semi-d at gardens and 2 months before he left us we move back to the 3rd place(at 12 yrsold). ha. yeah. I enjoyed those moments. Of course, I miss holding dad's hand. yeah. friends come and go, family leaves you when time is up.

yeah. I have to get back to God more regularly. not going to let mom down and will not let the past hinder me me from running the race God has for me. JC LIFE, here i come!! I'll stand strong in the presence of God! I'll rmb that God is always with me and will never leave me alone to finish the race. I am proud to let you know that I'm a NA student who made it to Jc.

To the person who said that NORMAL is use to address abnormal people who are NORMAL TECH AND NORMAL ACADEMIC students... I have no idea what's up with ppl these days who think highly of themselves and has nv spare a thought for ppl in NA AND NT... have you not thought through that ppl in these streams probably had struggles and family or health problems that hinders them. disappointed with such ppl. It doesnt matter which stream you get into, how long you spend in the education system,it matters more where you end up in after those years of education... lawyer, doctor, ceo ...etc. character is more important than achievements.
yeah. sheesh it off and get going. such ppl are not worth in be kept in memory.

hoo. guitar class today!!