Get into one when my walk with Him is strong.
Its foolish to waste time pondering over useless things.

Highlights!
Eldest bro finally graduated from NUS!
Kara and Randy's wedding would be this sat!! hoo! sweet couple.
Zonal Bonding this sunday, to the ZOO! ha.

Might be serving in the Dialect ministry on sundays as a guitarist if I'm capable of playing in the team. haha. Hokkien! haha.

hope to catch up with you guys soon.

woohoo. I have not enjoyed my holidays.

Well, the first week of Holidays, I was in school for the first three days and of course I had Chinese Tuition every night!! well, speaking Chinese Language isnt easy at all. Zzzz. yeah, guess most of you will think that I'm weird, like a chinese cant speak chinese language well. yeah, I'm kind of fustrated and irritated when I cant speak chinese well! phew.. thank God for my chinese tutor who got me through chinese Olevel and soon chinese Alevel! I want to get over it this year!!

Apart from that, Every weekend is packed with events.

the 1st Saturday, I attended Ms Ting and Mr Low's Church wedding!

haha. That was the only highlight of my 1st week. ha.

Ms Ting, my sec1 formteacher,sec2 music teacher,sec2-4 guitar teacher-incharge and sec4-geog teacher.

Mr Low, sec3-5 addmath teacher and sec5 level head.

haha. really glad and happy for them, TALL COUPLE! ha.

Second weekend of Holidays was 2nd Bro's Commission Parade!

woohoo! He had the honour to hold the Flag for Commando OCS! really proud of him.

yeah. Both Brothers are capable and fit! Eldest bro was also from Ocs. man. phew, thank God I'm a girl, i'm not as capable as them and studies wise they're much much better than me. ha. I'll give my best! Look up to them!

well, PW!! ha. thank God for an awesome PW group! yeah, have been spending much of my hols on PW! yesterday, we went Orchard to do our PW surveys. for the last half an hour, we decided to do a verbal survey. Well, that was a Giant to me. If you know me well, I dont really like to talk much unless I know you well. So approaching strangers is already a BIG NO NO to me, however, I have to do it. Guess what, I was so nervous that I phrased my sentence wrongly! the question is "what is unique about the Peranakan culture to you?" ....

I was really nervous that I minus off the words "the peranakan culture to". so I ended up asking "What is unique about you?" SHEESH. then it took me awhile to realise.. then I went "omg.i mean not about you, what is unique about the peranakan culture to you" Gosh. that was super embarrassing! but thank God that person laughed along and was understanding enough. ha. I have to overcome my fear of talking to strangers. ha.

well, yesterday, Great-grandfather fell down and was unconscious.

Today, He left us. a fall and that's it...

guess his 90++ of years living has left a great impact on many.

May the peace of God be with great-grandma, grandma and everybody.

Through it all I KNOW THAT GOD IS IN CONTROL!
"Fear not my child, I'll never leave, I'll never forsake you..."
Yes! Amen! This is what that pulls me through the first 3months in JC.

I'll stand firm In HIM!
I know that its through those experiences that God would refine me into the person He desires me to be. "I'll walk with You wherever you go, through tears and joy, I'll trust in you." God I my refuge and strength! I'll press on! My life will not end here. I'll continue to press on and press in, my days are numbered! hold my hand and run the race ahead with me!

well, I seriously hope my dear friends would come back to God! Rmb those days where you were on fire for God, the first Love/ encounter with Him. Without Him, would you have gotten this far? hmm. well, I cant say much though, but I hope to see you guys back in the kingdom, dont miss the blessings. God still loves you. He give all of the freedom to choose/ decide. He will not FORCE his love on us, He will wait patiently for you to return to him.

Its MAY!
Firstly, I would like to apologise to most of my close dear friends for not catching up with you guys. I've been loaded with lots of things recently. Well, I have to thank God for carrying me through those tough days.

Well, being in JC feels really different from secondary school. I went back to PL last thursday(300th april), I realized how fortunate I am to be there for 11 years? I admit that I was kind of dying to get out of PL after 10 years there. However, the extra year was a blessing to me. Sometimes, I do wonder why was I placed there? was it because Grandma wanted all her granddaugthers to be in a Methodist Girls' school ? PL was the nearest branch when it was situated at Boundary Road. Guess apart from that, my life is in God's hands.
PL primary and secondary has a tradition of having worship and word before school starts and weekly chapel sessions. I remember those stories about Noah's ark,adam and eve... etc. which were taught during chapel sessions and songs like: This is the day, Joy is the Flag flown High, He's Able.
Well, I thank God for placing me there. God has carried me through those years, tears of joy and sorrows. Those 11 years in PL has formed almost a quarter of my story in God's plan. The tough experience when I lost my Dad, God bless me with great teachers who were there to support and pray for me (6th year in pri and 5yrs in sec school). God showed me that He is my Fahter in Heaven and will not leave me alone. I wonder what would happen if I didnt put PL sec as my first choice. would I come to know God further? would I be who I am today?
yeah, friends,lovedones and things around come and go.

Being in JC, I thank God for restoring His peace and strength in me.
Well, I'll keep my accountability - my focus would just be on my academic and cca. ha. yeah. hope to keep in touch with my dear friends and teachers who've made my life in PL memorable and fruitful.
I'll stick to the pormise of God! Leave my footprints behind.

SYF2009
PL guitar ensemble- silver.
woo. I seriously think you guys deserve at least a GOLD! really. What matters most is the experience you all had together. The countless practises and efforts put in worth more than the award. 10years down the road, the award would be useless, take with you the experience and memories you all had together as an ensemble. No moatter what, Praise God for a silver! The panel of judges were too strict this year. yeah. All the way!

woo. Had MSA1. I'm pretty sure I didnt do well, it wasnt my best. Arghh. yeah. TIME TO WAKE UP LJIA.
why am i so emotional recently. Guess I probably missed out a lot in my quiet time with God. I've not been doing qt very regularly. Man, this has greatly affected me. I felt insecure somehow. Its not because I have no friends its just that I suddenly miss my dad.

On sunday, my mom and I packed our old house and there were lots of things that brings back memories about my dad and wonderful family memories. woo. Dad- self-sacrificial man, does things quietly more than he talks, jovial, thrifty, generous to the poor and needy, fatherly(duh), provides everything for his family, good at cooking, loves exercising, humble and lots of things. yeah, I thank God for a great dad who gave his kids different exposures and taught us great values in life that cannot be bought. experience of living in a "kampong" when I was a kid till 6 yrs old, a month at boundary rd with grandma, a year at hdb, 6 yrs at semi-d at gardens and 2 months before he left us we move back to the 3rd place(at 12 yrsold). ha. yeah. I enjoyed those moments. Of course, I miss holding dad's hand. yeah. friends come and go, family leaves you when time is up.

yeah. I have to get back to God more regularly. not going to let mom down and will not let the past hinder me me from running the race God has for me. JC LIFE, here i come!! I'll stand strong in the presence of God! I'll rmb that God is always with me and will never leave me alone to finish the race. I am proud to let you know that I'm a NA student who made it to Jc.

To the person who said that NORMAL is use to address abnormal people who are NORMAL TECH AND NORMAL ACADEMIC students... I have no idea what's up with ppl these days who think highly of themselves and has nv spare a thought for ppl in NA AND NT... have you not thought through that ppl in these streams probably had struggles and family or health problems that hinders them. disappointed with such ppl. It doesnt matter which stream you get into, how long you spend in the education system,it matters more where you end up in after those years of education... lawyer, doctor, ceo ...etc. character is more important than achievements.
yeah. sheesh it off and get going. such ppl are not worth in be kept in memory.

hoo. guitar class today!!

I'm back to update.
Well, WAKE UP. WAKE UP. Life has been tough I guess. I'm not too sure if I can pull through the 2years in JC. Since day One of school till now, I felt really lousy. Despite everything, I pulled through Feburary. I have to look HAPPY and show that I enjoy school and everything is fine when my family talks to me. What's up with me.

I'm kind of tired putting on a mask in front of them. Honestly, I dont enjoy life there. I wanted to tell my mom, however, I cant seem to take the courage to tell her. I dont want to let her down by giving up. I feel neither here nor anywhere. Doing Chinese homework makes me want to cry.
It makes me wonder if I'm in the right place everyday.

SCREAM? CRY? gosh, not sure what to do. Who should I tell?
man, its so not me. i need some peace and a quiet place to let go everything in my mind.
My days are numbered and so I have to cherish each day, I need help from the Lord. I seriously surrender everything to God. Only He understands how I totally feel everyday.
I think God for blessing me with great friends like Daphne,grace,charmaine,linghui,fangyin and yuan zhen.

woo, of course, I miss MY DEAR FRIENDS! carina,van tay and all! must catch up really soon. I miss those times where we hang out tgt, laugh, cry and support each other through the tough years.

Thanks to my guitar friends for the encouragement. really appreciate them! =) apologise for not expressing much gratitude. Those words from you guys are really encouraging. =) thank you!

YAHOOO.congrates. What a day and time to finally see his true colours! yeah. time to wake up and move on. thank God. FOCUS ON my goal and my walk with God where all things would fall into place in HIS time.

I know I'm lagging. Happy Valentines day to all who are IN LOVE and of course HAPPY FRIENDSHIP WEEK to all my friends. ha.
oh well, HOMEWORK PILING UP each day. GP!! GP!! GP!!

man, was called to "LANG DU" ( read aloud) during my first chinese lecture. gosh. horrible feeling. That's why I dont dare to speak chinese. yeah, my language isnt very strong. I must seriously thank the girl who sat beside me and read out every line for me. ha. I must and will LOVE CHINESE.

highlight for the week, GUITAR CAMP!

hoo hoo. it was a great time of bonding and learning. My mind shut down during the Night game, felt bad for writting my answers wrongly but we won the mystery and the answer turn out to be a joke. well, my brain cant function at night. ha. Had a great time knowing everybody better, seriously better. Well, hope to thank the J2s for making everyone feel so rooted to the ensemble.